Escaping poverty by doing the norms and indulging into the hectic corporate world.
Leaving the peaceful rural life and immerse into the urban jungle.
there are thoughts that bothers..
I am trying to figure out the meaning of life and the purpose of living.
What is life?
It is always a mystery to me.
What on earth am i here for?
Who knows
in the cabinet!
I am in the state of discovering the answers to my questions. I am in the state on discovering my life.
How to live my life, and how and where I will be happy.
I am aware of the facts and suggestions from the books and from other people in how to live a happy life.
Sometimes, there are those who are trying to dictate me. I've been reading a lot about the "how to" and whatnot. However those things, those feat are not applicable to me at the moment. No matter how i think of it, how i feel it, i live with it, sadly it just turn out i am faking it. Since i graduated from college I am kind of depress and frustrated. It seems so lost and empty. I never felt fulfillment and satisfaction since then.
I am seeking for change, whether it will be physical change, character change, attitude and what ever change the material and spiritual world can offer. As long as it can change my mind settings and how i see things.
In short this is a battle between me and myself!
You might not understand what i am talking about and i don't understand it either. So let us see what will happen the next day, where and what my sanity and insanity brings me!
So, why orange balloon?
It is just that, when i got home yesterday from work there was an orange balloon in the sala. One of my cousin brought it. And then my other cousin told me about some news that the concerns was part of my history and i feel sad. I am not sad about the news, i am sad that i did not feel something about it, neither happy nor sad feelings. Nothing at all.
And right now i am thinking of that orange balloon and i don't know why.
The end.
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