Being a Teacher?

I never expected to be one. I always say, “I don’t like to be a teacher; I’d rather be like that, be like this, being a teacher is blah blah blah..”. But at this instance I am teaching a bunch of kids every Sunday which they say the most bolshie and who came from the notorious part of the city. At first it was kind’a exhausting and I really had a headache. The kids are really …arrgghhh…., especially the boys. For my whole life I never used into talking for a long period, actually I really don’t like to talk, but I don’t have a choice, I have to. Dealing with different personality of the children is not easy; sometimes it made me crazy ugghh!  

For a month and a few days now, I have seen the light. In the side of my mind there is the desire in contributing to their change. But I am wrong! Despite of the kids stubbornness, arrgghhh.. and ughh! They contribute a lot to mine, they let me understand a lot more about life, how to be happy in the midst of difficulties. It can’t be denied that these kids came from the poor family in the city and in unimaginable situation and surroundings, yet they still smile and you can see hope in their eyes. 

God really works on wonders. Here are some snapshots of smiles and hope.

Being a teacher? Well, I won’t say I like it, but its fine, and if I will rate it, I won’t say it is excellent but it is satisfactory. One thing I am sure right now, is that I love what I am doing.

A Simple and Empty Cup

I am like a simple and empty cup

A cup keen to be filled with coffee

Coffee of knowledge, Coffee of Gods wisdom

Coffee of Understanding to all

A cup keen to accept a coffee of tribulations and dispute

I survive through coldness, hotness and warmness of a coffee

I am strong, even coffee pour me gently or harshly

I existed for one and all, I serve man

Above all, I serve God!

However, despite of who I am

I cannot control every coffee

It even breaks me

Sometimes coffee overflow

That’s why I have the saucer which symbolize God

Who carry and hold me through

letter of appreciation kuno :)

Dear _____,

Good day!hehe....

Te _____, te _____, te _____.......

ayaw lang hunahunaa f unsah ang mga wala nimo mabuhat or wala buhata....

kay ang tanan okay lang...

ayaw kabalaka....

ang imporatante maayo ang atong relasyon ug kita nagkahiusa....harhar....

walay dili nato makaya...

ang akong pasaylo ayaw lang pangayoa....

bsan ang pasaylo ni __ ayaw jud pud pangayoa....hehe

hinuon, ang imong kaugalingon andama...

kay ang defend sah ato research nagkahiduol nah...

hala.....

mao kun naa kah mga pangutana...

ipangutana gayud kana ni jefferson bacareza...

ug sah dihang wala nah akoy ikasumpay

basta ako gayud nalipay

tungod kay ang akong mga kauban andam sah kanunay

nga musuporta sah ilang leader..(ngeek wala mi.sangay)

hahaha....

God Bless to us!

matinahuron nga anak,

(signed)____

Lifeless Sensation

Drown from the tears of the ocean
Agony, from the heat of the sun
Drought swathe my whole being
My stomach & knees are shaking
I’m thirsty! I am hungry!

Stressed from the chief’s dominion
Struggling to be faultless
However the chief sees the mess
Bewildered! Where is the precise place?
What is the acceptable act? 

This existence is very uncertain
Cynical in every life’s battle
Drain brains, drain veins, drain emotion!
Breath there is, but lifeless!

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An e-mail for my friend!

thanks ____ for understanding, and not scolding me for not helping the group.. i am always a major major big mistake.
sorry
I am always asking for sorry..
can't help it. i really feel sorry for what i can not do,..
it's a big shame on me!
i do always have the reason for not making something!
sometimes it's because of the situation, resources and circumstances,
and sometimes, i just really don't have the idea and feel lazy to do.
i cannot promise not to do it again, but i promise to change my attitude.
Not this time, but in due time and due process.
i really don't feel the calling of being a ___,
my heart desire for something else.
My energy is not parallel to yours.
I don't know what to do, and honestly i am really out of track at this time.
I am very confused not for my identity
but for what can i do, and where i really fit, for what is my talent.
The laughter and bubbly personality i project, sometimes is not really me..
I admit that i feel pity for myself for not growing.
I know that you would say: that it is not good to feel self pity
I am trying not to..
I don't know why , maybe I'm crazy.
Well thank you for being a good friend, classmate, group mate,
thanks for everything,
I admire you for what you are, as a person cause you project a good personality and your intelligence
for not giving up to any challenges that comes into you.
This maybe a long letter, and a very wrong grammar
But this comes from my heart
here attach the acknowledgment and sample abstract
please save this letter.
I wrote this just this morning, base on my feelings and instant thinking.
I may be  a sort of emo.. charr/...
Sorry ___...
Thank you and God bless